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Sunday, June 18, 2006

Testing, Testing . . .



Is this thing still on?

Okay, so, yeah, uh, my husband was out of town last week, and, because we are poor souls with no lives and therefore almost never go anywhere, this was the first time either one of us had been gone for longer than a day, and so my son was all freaking out and refusing to sleep at night and constantly asking where Daddy was, and it kinda sucked.

During this time despite the suckiness I wrote out this whole elaborate outline for an audio post based on a meme I got tagged for, and then I fought with a decidedly cranky Blogger to get my audio post account working, and then I decided my post idea sucked and I needed to do it better, and I came up with this really brilliant idea to write a series of vibrant, descriptive, touching present-tense personal narrative vignettes describing moments in my past and read them out loud, and then I didn't follow through.

(Have you noticed this theme? This theme of me working really hard on something, and then trashing it, and then trying to do it better, but not following through? Yeah. This is the story of my life. I am a perfectionist with little drive (outside of paid work, that is) and no self-confidence. These traits do not play well together. Blogging was supposed to be my lazy outlet, a playground for my mind where I could hang out and write stuff and not care if it was any good or made any sense to anyone but myself. And then I realized that, like, people, cool people, awesomely talented wonderful beautiful admirable people, ACTUALLY READ THIS SHIT. Uh. Oh . . . ).

Also, this weekend, being Father's Day weekend, was kind of booked.

Anyway, just wanted to say: I love my husband-- he's the best dad ever; I my readers-- you're the best readers ever-- and I promise promise promise I will write lots this week! And maybe even finish that post I was tagged for.

8 comments:

Peter said...

i want this voice thing :) sounds like a very cool idea ... maybe you should do video and put that on youtube :)

Dawn said...

Any fathers day that passes with no blood shed is a success, in my book...

Mom101 said...

Are you a Virgo? You sound like me.

For what it's worth, the posts I crap out and publish and then cringe and wait for people to yell YOU SUCK and throw food at me...those tend to be the good ones. go figure.

Ruth Dynamite said...

It takes me hours of re-takes to create an outgoing voice mail message ("Hello. This is.." "Hi, you've reached..." "Hello. Please leave a..."), so I don't know about this audio blogging thing. Good luck with yours!

lildb said...

I loves me some Jaelithe, in any shape/form/flavor.

I could read something you'd said in your sleep and I'd get all swoony. You're that good.

Andrea said...

I'm familiar with your dilemma. I have several post ideas kicking their way around in my head, and have made no headway whatsoever. I hope you find a way to be happy with your writing. I can tell you we certainly are.

Oh, and the out of town thing? Call me. We'll get together.

Lisa said...

I'm really interested in the voice thing... Hmmm.

Her Bad Mother said...

Mom101 calls Virgo; I call Taurus/Gemini (am on cusp).

I lay awake some nights, thinking 'OMG what did I do?' The other week, I used the word (?) 'galatial' instead of 'galactic' (don't ask) and then had a minor freak-out on our afternoon walk when I - running through the post in my head again, realized what I had done. Took all of my motherly energy to not cut short WonderBaby's park time and run home to CHANGE TYPO IN BLOG.

Sick. I so hear you.